Cutting That Cord

Ok, so today is a big day for me. Last night, as I was sitting at a cafe with a sleeping baby, and chatting to my husband on the phone discussing the night's dinner menu, I had the idea that maybe Jake could go with his daddy today to Derry to see his grandmother. I need to stay at home because, well, our 1 year anniversary is only 2 weeks away and I STILL have thank you notes to finish... which must be done before Heather gets here tomorrow or they just won't get done in time. Plus, the house is a bit of a mess (surprise!!) and I need to do laundry and get Heather's room ready (oh and much more, but we'll see how much actually gets done, I'm still a lazy bones!).

So, I pumped and pumped and got 2 1/2 feed out last night and this morning (only pumped twice so I'm chuffed, as I haven't pumped in a while). And while that won't last Jake an entire day, he can supplement with formula as needs be.

Now here I am in an empty apartment, not sure how I'm feeling. Ok, ok, I know it's good to let these kind of things happen, but I'm just not USED to have an ENTIRE day with no baby. I put a song on and then almost turned it down thinking it was too loud... then realized there was no sleeping baby in the house. Little things like that keep happening.

And of course I'm the biggest worrier out there. At the moment I'm all worried about the following:
1. Someone on the bus being sick and giving it to Jake
2. Someone in Derry or the bus passing swine flu on to Jake (I told Rob to be a jerk and insist that people wash their hands before the get to cuddle him, especially as some of those people might be health care workers who go from house to house)
3. Mary dropping the baby (I KNOW Rob will be right there watching, but I still worry)
4. Rob forgetting to put the brake on the stroller and Jake rolling down the big, long hills of Derry.

Well, those are the biggest ones. But I figure, if I worry about them, then they won't happen (here's hoping)! At least I have an understanding husband who lets me be a bit neurotic around him about my anxieties.

So there it is. Jake is off with Rob on the way to Derry and I've my day to myself. This is going to take some getting used to...